Thursday, October 7, 2010


Tuesday, July 13, 2010

I hate unappreciative people.

You ever lose something, and not notice you lost it until you have a need for it? It happens all the time. And you know why? Because we never appreciate anything until we need it. And its not fair, we should appreciate everything and everybody important to us all the time, not just when it/they are useful to us. Especially people, humans are not meant to be used.

Nobody knows what tomorrow may bring, so be sure to let those in your life know how important they are to you, and how much you love them.

'Tis all.


Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The strength of a man.

The strength of a man isn't in the deep tone of his voice,
it's in the gentle words he whispers.

The strength of a man isn't how many friends he has,
it's how good of a friendship he has with his children.

The strength of a man isn't how respected he is in the streets,
it's how respected he is at home.

The strength of a man isn't how hard he hits,
it's how tender he touches.

The strength of a man isn't the weight he can lift,
it's the burdens he can carry.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Things are finally starting to look up.

I knew something great was gonna happen, I knew it. And I couldn't have been more right. I'm at SUCH a good place in my life right now, can't nobody bring me down. Things were rough for a minute, but I have a feeling it's all uphill from here...... I'm keeping my head up and I'm leaving behind all of those that once left me.

With that being said, I got a new job. A better one, much much better. But I'm not telling anybody anything about it because niggas like to hate on your shine. I don't need anybody putting an evil eye over what I got. My relationship is amazing, it's better than anything I could have ever asked for - I thank God every day for sending such a perfect person my way. Same as with my job, I'm not telling anybody anything about me and minez because not only is it not anybodys business, but I don't need these thirsty ass hoes hating on what I got and they don't. My relationship with my mom is great, my car is great, bills are being paid on time, the weather's nice.... Everything is perfect right now.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Twitter, anybody?

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Newest addition to my family!

Okay so... Maybe not so new, lol. I bought him in March. I just don't think I posted a picture yet. It's not the Acura TL I've always wanted..... But I love it anyways. It's a 2008 Civic, if you can't tell. It's a standard, and it's equipped with a Honda navigation system. Love it! You see how dark my tints were? I miss that. MA laws suck, so I had to remove them in order for my car to pass inspection. So yeah. His name is Ghost :)

"This too shall pass"

Here's my (almost) latest tattoo. I got another one after this, but this one is still fairly new. I got in on April 7th, 2010. I love it so much! Basically, I got it to remind me that "this too shall pass." Every rough time I go through, WILL eventually pass. So when I look in the mirror in the morning, and everytime I look over my shoulder - I see these words of inspiration, and it just reminds me too keep my head up. Because even if it seems far away, recovery is ALWAYS an option. In the opposite sense though, I also got it to remind me to never take anything for granted - and to always look at everything as if I'm seeing it for the first or last time. Because like all BAD things, all GOOD things shall too pass someday.

Bite ME

Just kidding, don't bite me. Only my boyfriend can do that ;) But here's a pic. It's been a while since I posted one. The blonde is gone. I got sick of it, so I went back to the dark brown. I think it looks better dark, anyways... But I love love love the curls! They just take forever to do, since my hair is naturally wavy. Curling irons FTW!

Love story

Now baby you're the truth so I'm just being honest
You treat me like a queen so that's why you're my highness
That means king, it seems I've known you for the longest
Funny how we connected on the low like Vonage
Over time, we gon' be fine, like wine
And I'll never put another over MINE
And I aint tryna blow ya head up like reefer
but we got chemistry to the point we need a beaker

Word to the wise.

With every step you take, a HATER will take two. For a hater to hate, they have to follow... You know who else follows? Fans. Just be mindful of those who surround you. Never surround yourself with those who wish to see your downfall.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

I hate unappreciative ass people.

If I'm constantly going out of my way for someone, doing them favors and shit that I don't even need to be doing - then I wanna be recognized! I don't just want some pat-on-the-back "thanks buddy" type shit. But it is what it is, I guess. Some people are only cool with you when they need something. Oh and I'm doing great, not that you asked or anything.

A N Y W A Y S.

I've had my car since March 27th. I love it so much! I finally got the standard I've always wanted :) I've run into some problems with it though. I've been driving so much, ya know - doing favors for someone - so my right tires are making a weird noise. I need to have that checked out, just havent had the time. Also, a few weeks ago, I was coming out of my friends driveway (which is really high and my car is lowered) and I hit my lower front bumper on pavement :( I felt like crying, deadass. I can fix that myself, I just need to get some color-match paint from Honda, and I haven't had the time to do that. And then just this past week, I unlocked my car and noticed someone hit me! It was a hit and run! This time, I didn't feel like crying, I felt like KILLING someone, lol. They hit my rear driver's side. And I know it was a white car because they left paint on my tire/wheel. There were a bunch of scratches, but I got most of them off myself. I still need to go through insurance, though - because there are dents and some scratches I couldn't get off myself. My premium is gonna be through the roof :( More than it already is, that is.

I got a speeding ticket last week for $185.... Ugh, I need to stop speeding! Well, nevermind. Anyways, I'm taking that one to court. I got it in Maine, so driving three hours just to speak to a judge for five minute is gonna suck, but whatever. I don't think I should have to pay for this one. I was going 80 in a 65, but it was late and night and I was tired - and there were no other cars on the highway at all. It was on I-95. Stupid state troopers :(

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Battle wounds.

I've been left with them - and as much as I try to pretend that it never happened and that I never got hurt, the scars are there. And I guess I'm afraid to give myself 100% to anybody else for this reason..... I'm afraid of being taken for granted, being cheated on, being lied to, etc. And although he promises he won't hurt me, the LAST one promised the same - & look what happened. I know it's unfair to compare the two, but after what I went through, I just can't help it. I wish I could get past this, it seems so silly. But then it all comes back to the MISERY I went through for six whole days.... And it just makes me wonder if its worth it. I seem to have found an amazing person, and now that I'm older, I should be able to go into this with a clear head, a clear heart, ready for whatever comes my way. And I want that, I swear I do - I want to make it to the TOP with him..... But am I wrong to be afraid?

Saturday, May 1, 2010

La la la la

I'm no romantic. Quite the opposite, actually. I've been called cold hearted on multiple occasions. But this kid.... he makes me want to change that. He has me going out of my way, doing corny shit just to make him smile. Got me wanting to hold hands through the park and shit. Stuff like that. I've always been afraid to showcase my emotions, in fear that they'll be taken for granted.. But I feel like it's okay this time.

Friday, April 30, 2010

It's been a while...

I keep losing focus on this blog.

Promise imma be back soon =]

Sunday, April 18, 2010

this is that REAL shit to make you FEEL shit . . ask me whatever ;)

Sunday, April 11, 2010

When you truly care for someone, you don’t look for their faults. You don’t look for answers to their imperfections. You don’t look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes. You accept the faults, and you overlook excuses. The measure of love is when you love without measure. There are rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and who loves you in return. So once you have it, don’t let it go. Because your chance may NEVER come again.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

- - -

If you like someone, and you want them to stick around, then why would you ever make them feel unimportant? I just don't understand. Man, I swear I just can't win and that's the story of my life. I hate being single, but if it's to constantly be let down by someone I'm with - then I would rather be alone. Or would I? Honestly these words are becoming nonsense and they don't even mean anything to me anymore, but I'm sick and tired of this. Just let me luck up and find someone real...... Just one time. Please?

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Listen to this ;)

These dudes are nice, no lie. You might as well just download the mixtapes now, so when they blow up, which they WILL, you can say you were one of tha first..... I know these players dont fit too good on this blog, but oh well jus go download them ooookay :) & tell your friends too, thanks.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

I hate drama.

You ever had a feeling that someone was talking shit behind your back? You can tell just by the way they be looking at you. Like when there's three of you together & you're the first one to leave - you know them two talk about you the second you walk away.... I think that's going on right now. & I swear, this is why I stay SOLO. I just hate females so much, deadass!

Friday, March 19, 2010


Why are people so nosy?

I have this friend from work . . . We're REAL cool so we're always together. When my store's dead, I go kick it w/ him at his store, which is riiiiight next to mines. Well there are these girls in the mall who are crushing on him hardbody, & they just feel the need to constantly stare & talk shit every time we're together -_- Like wow, what is this, high school? Today me & dude left the mall & went out for lunch... We were gone for like two and a half hours (when you're the BOSS, you can do that lmao) . . When we got back, everyone was staring asking where we went & why we were gone for so long. Like wow, REALLY? He got off at 7:30 & I stayed 'til 9:00, and usually if I leave first he walks me to my car, & seeing as how HE left first, I walked him to his car . . & people really stared like the whole time. Dude like can I fuckin walk my friend to his car? Wow these hating ass bitches, I swear. I hate people who are nosy. Like jus mind your fuckin business & worry about YOURS cuz I got mines.


Tuesday, March 16, 2010


If you going to see your man/girl, why the fuck would you alert them ahead of time that you are coming? Surprise is a bitch. Think about it, if a dude got some shorty on his dick, and he get a text message from his girl saying "I will be there in 15 minutes." He is going to get that bitch out of there, wipe his dick off, clear the messages and recent calls out his phone, get under the covers and when wifey come he's gonna stunt like he's just waking up. You should never let ya girl/man know when you coming. Surprise is a bitch, surprise is how you find out what you need to find out. You won't EVER find out any good shit announcing when you going to be somewhere. The police wouldn't catch nobody if they ANNOUNCED what time they was coming to kick ya fuckin door in. Surprise is a bitch and it's free, so use it. It don't cost a dime to surprise the shit out they ass, shit if you surprise them and aint nothing going on, you be loving them even more, if you surprise them and you do find out something out, well at least you know now. Either way, you can't lose.

Monday, March 15, 2010

"hey wuz gud ma u got a man"

Seriously? People actually say that? Still?! Oh man . . . These men, excuse me, these boys, have yet to learn. First of all . . . We have NO mutual friends on Facebook/MySpace/whatever, how the fuck did you find me? Second of all . . . You can't spell. You expect me to give you the time of day and your unintelligent ass can't even spell a simple sentance consisting of less than 10 words? You really think imma write back? You sound desperate as fuck, and I understand that my shit says single - but niggas still be doing this when the shit clearly say IN A RELATIONSHIP. My nigga, you don't pay attention to what my profile say, you can't spell, you sound desperate, oh AND ya ugly. And you have the nerve to write to me on some "u got a man" bullshit. Get the fuck outta here forreal.

i couldd see you in thiss !

i could see myself driving that too lol :) i like tha wheels on it

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Sunday, March 14, 2010

Random 101

That's the inside of my new car :) I looooove it, I think it's so sick! I posted it on FB but I figured I'd put it on here too . . . I'm gassed, lol. It's a 2008 Honda Civic EX Navi, 5 spd of course! I can't drive it 'til Thursday cuz my insurance agent is outta the state on vacation - & I'm not gonna risk driving it w/out insurance. That's how I lost my Saab, I drove it around w/out insurance & I got stuck in a flood sooo my car suffered water damage :( Que saaaad.

I got court on April 13th for my speeding ticket that I got on August 3rd of '09 . . . This case been going on FOREVER & I just can't wait for it to be over! I was going 115 in a 65, and if the judge doesn't "excuse" it then it's gonna go on my record as a felony :( not only that, but imma have to re-do driving school, take a 1yr suspension period, & pay a shit load of money. I got my fingers crossed that I can win this shit.

When Alex and I broke up, I didn't go to school for like two weeks, so I fell behind OD! This week we're on Spring break, soooo imma take this time to study all the shit I missed - & my teachers are gonna let me make up everything, thank god! When I go back to school on tha 22nd, imma give it my ALL like I was doing before, cuz this is for my future sooo I gotta stay focused ;) & like the picture says . . . it will all be worth it in the end.
Soooo..... I have a new boo :) ahhhhh man he makes me smile all day long - it's crazy. I'm not gonna say much about it becuz I know people are steady hating on me & what I do, & this is something I definitely want to work out, so imma keep it private deadass. But he's so cute & so sweet & he treats me sooooooo good.

Finally got my new car!

It's not my '08 TL that I dream of every single night, lol. But it is an '08 Civic. It's pretty sexy, might I say so myself :) . . I went to the dealership looking for an '04 Audi, but I fell in love w/ this car. & it's a 5spd too, OH YES! **note to self: stop being a nerd**

I have a lot to write about.

Someone on my formspring reminded me of that, lol.

I'm leaving now, but I'm gonna come back later w/ some pics of my car & some details of what's been going on lately in my super boring life :) OH & I gotta mention my new booooo..... & my new hair color, & the breakup (ew) & everything else.

Staaaayyyy tuuuuuneddddd.

can you please write on your blog more! i know you must be busy, but your thoughts are soooo interesting and so is your life :) (im serious)

awwww lol thanks<3 i HAVE been really busy, work & school & stuff. but i'm gonna write more, promise!

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Saturday, March 13, 2010

so i like this guy and he likes me but i think hes playing games and thinks imma joke cuz hes HOT and im pretty but chubby idkk...any advice.

I think it's soooo cool that people ask me for advice :) it makes me feel like my word matters<3 anyways babygirl, listen...... Self-confidence is the first requisite to great undertakings. ALWAYS remember that. I've always been chubby but I've never let me stop that from doing anything. Pay attention to th way this kid treats you and acts around you. Some guys just really arent shallow, and they care for more than just looks - maybe he's one of those guys. But honestly sweetie, if you think he's playing games w/ you, then DONT SETTLE. There's a guy out there who willllllll treat you right & do right by you, so never ever settle for leas than that. All in all, give it some more time, & if you're still confused about where things are going w/ him, then just sit him down & talk to him! Hopefully he's honest, and if you guys aren't on tha same page, don't stress it! There are huuuundredddds of other guys ;) good luck!<3

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people on here need to stop with the Alex questions because i bet its not easy talking about it when the wound is fresh. you two broke up! BIG DEAL PEOPLE ; SHIT HAPPENS! take care :)

Honestly...... I'm over it. & I say that w/ every ounce of honesty I have in my heart. For six days, I didn't eat, sleep, go to school, work, basically I just stayed home and cried and cried and cried. I loved Alex w/ everything I had inside of me; but I've always been strong emotionally. Breaking up is no fun at all, but breaking down won't do you any good. In order to truly be happy in life, you have to learn to accept the things you cannot change. I can't change the fact that Alex left me for another girl, so I might as well accept it. It's like I said in a previous answer, I'm only 18 yrs old - and when you're this young, nothing is forever. Shit, I don't even know if I'M gonna survive til tomorrow, nevermind a relationship. BUT I do agree w/ you though, people who are soooo concerned w/ Alex need to stfu & move on w/ their lives. It's annoying, not because it's a "fresh wound" but because I have no more feelings for him - he's dead to me. But thank youuuu, whoever you are<3

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Friday, March 12, 2010

If a guy really loves a girl and wants to only be with her, should he fight to stay with her? (not literally fighting lol)

wellllll..... i guess it all depends on their situation.... whats their situation? lol

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how'd you move on so fast after a long ass relationship?

same way he did, lol. it's really not that serious, i'm 18 yrs old & it's not like i was married to him or anything. i got a short attention span, it's on to the next oneeeee, ya dig? ;)

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me and my (ex)boyfriend been off & on and we recently started talking again. We've been together 2 yrs we've broken up {real) twice and now we're talking, oh our relationships ruins EVERY summer =| ; weird, advice? - siqned lost in love.

Honestly..... The best advice I can give you is to move on. What's broken is broken, & sometimes it's better to rememer it as it was than to hurt yourself trying to put back the pieces. Whatever you decide to do, always remember that YOUR happiness comes first. Good luck<3

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Monday, March 8, 2010

haha dont sound like a gold digger, i know your not lol

I'm notttttt a gold digger. I have two jobs & I make good money. I just bought a brand new car. I have everything I want cuz I get it myself. Alex can take his AP Jon & shove it where the sun don't shine, he spoiled me cu he wanted to & never cuz I asked for it. Don't let him fool you though, I've blown sooooo much money on him just the same though. But I wouldn't take anything back or change anything, that was my baby & he deserved it.

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he definitely downgraded!

He sure did ;) the kid I'm talking to now drives a siiiiick car, has a great job, lives on his own, has a college degree & is fly as fuuuuuck. So we know who ended up coming out on top ;)

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Lol damn a white girl... smh wat was he thinkin

Womp womp womp, I know right?! This chick has more facial hair than he does lmfaooo it's rediculouuus.

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i like your honesty :)

Alot of people tell me that, lol thanks.

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why did alex do you dirty ?

I made some mistakes in the past. We both made mistakes --more on my part though. But it's all good cuz Alex knows the deal, now that I know what went wrong, I can fix it. But he decided to leave me for some corny ass white girl instead.

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well if he asked to come back to you, would you accept him?

Well...... I'm currently talking to someone & he's soooo sweet :) but Alex is and will always be my first love, and a part of my heart will always be his. We all have a certain weakness for the person we adore, so the answer to this question ulises yes.

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do you think you and alex will get back together?


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Sunday, March 7, 2010

you're so beautiful & independent, why do you even bother wasting time on a male like that?

Awwww, thank you<33333 I wanna know who this is :)

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alex left you for another girl? why

Cuz I'm too good for him - & apparently he felt the need to downgrade.

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Saturday, March 6, 2010

have you ever punched a midget in the nose for eating your gummy bears ....i would that should be a crime .....heres another question why does the muffin man like to drink bleach on the rocks while dancing to techno music in womans undergarments.....

Awwww if this is Tyler, I'd like to thank youuu yet again for making me smile :) I've been in the hospital ALL day & I just needed a smile...... So thanks for the silly questions<3 but I love me some gummii bears so you knoowww I'd punch a midget for steling mines ;)

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Friday, March 5, 2010

are you still with Alex ?

No I'm not.

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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

"dress your best, never get lazy - stuff like that is unattractive"um NOO! being able to stay in &lounge around in sweats to watch movies or whatever with ur bf is the CUTEST. u should be able to be comfortable enough w/ them to scrub sometimes

to each his own, then. if you wanna be around your man in a bummy 'fit, then that's on you. i'd rather look nice for mine & show him what he's got. but like i said, to each his own.

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do you have any tips on having a great relationship? me & my ex were together for 3 yrs.. & now we barely talk but we plan on working things out. ANY good tips on keeping a relationship... strong & healthy?

communication is SO important. respect him/her, trust. never look through their phone/emails/facebook/myspace/etc. if you don't trust them, you shouldn't be with them in the first. never act like you're irreplaceable, because no matter what, you ARE. treat him/her like a king/queen. always dress your best, never get lazy - stuff like that is unattractive. talk about problems like adults, no screaming. before beginning an argument, decide if it's really worth it - more times than not, it won't be. always remember that losing an argument is better than losing them. never act brand new around your friends, treat their family with respect. allow him/her time to spend alone, space is actually healthy in a relationship. let them know every chance you get how much they mean to you. never take them for granted. i know this is all over the place, but it's the best i've got. good luck!

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how many tattoos do you have? and of what?

I currently have two. My name on my left wrist, and stars going down my back. I want to get a few more though :)

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i could see you in this car ! :)

Whoever you are, you know me so well ;) I would definitely drive that!

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Friday, February 26, 2010

Someone please tell me...

....Why this car is soooo fly? When I get mine, it's a wrap. I don't want no basic base trim, though. My shit's gonna be a 2008 6 speed TL-S, yes! The 4th generation TL is not my style. It's straight with a colored front grille, but still - not me. I swear, I been dreaming 'bout owning this car for the last six years. I fell in love with the '04 model the first time I saw it. 3rd generation has my heart! By this time next year, I will have one ;) I'm gonna have to get some good ass insurance though, cuz I'm infamously known for being a little speed demon & totaling cars, lmao.

It sucks being car-less. It sucks even more having a suspended license, cuz even if I had a car, I couldn't drive it! Let this be a lesson learned : I have court in April to decide when I get my license back. Please let it be soon!

Then I'll probably get some basic little car while I stack up my chips so I can get my dream vehicle. Or just let me win the lottery, or something. I aint even asking for much. Just let me win like $30,000. Then I'd be good. Even if I won more money then that, there's no way I'd get a different car, I'd just put way more modifications on it. I still haven't decided if I want black, white, or gray. I know for sure the first thing I'm gonna do is get all-around tint. I hate being stopped at a red light & seeing niggas in the next car over looking at me through the corner of my eye. That shit is so damn annoying. I also want some turbo on that bitch - you gonna hear me coming from a mile away ;) In the back, I'm gonna remove the Acura logo & replace it with an Autobot emblem, soooo sick. Man, lemmii stop dreaming & shit.

Monday, February 15, 2010

how are you comfortable with yourself? on your blog, you seem so confident. im not confident at all.

You just gotta be comfortable in your own skin, I guess. Regardless of what you do, what you wear, what you say, etc, people WILL hate on you. You can't please everybody. All you can do is be who you are, and if people wanna accept you then let 'em, & if they wanna hate on you, let 'em do that too. You can't live your life for other people, just live up to your own standards. That's the best I got, lol.

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Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Valentine's Day.

Why do some people feel the need to knock this day? I think it's because women (and men!) who are single are hatin' on the ones who have a special day to celebrate their love with their boo, and they're mad because they're either going to be having a one night stand with a complete stranger, or sitting at home eating chocolates they bought for themselves and watching some black and white oldies movie on TV. And I hear it all the time, "You should be showcasing your love everyday, not just on February 14th!" Agreed, but I don't hear these people complaining about any other holidays? Why do we celebrate dead presidents on the 3rd Monday of February? Why do we honor the dead on the 31st of October? Why do we have yearly festivities to honor the life of God in April and in December? EXACTLY! Smh, I think these people need to stop hating and let commited people enjoy their day. Just sayin'.

are you insecure about youself?

Nope! Should I be? Lol, I'm not gonna waste my life wishing I was something I'm not - when I look in the mirror, I see the same exact thing everybody else sees. Size 18 and I don't give a fuck cuz I'm still cool :) Lol, I'm not gonna sit here and pretend I'm some skinny little barbie doll cuz that would just mean I'm in denial, and I'm not! I accept myself and love myself, and if anyone has a problem with that then it's just too bad, hah.

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Every day, all the time.

Mine, always.
I love you :)

if you still have a boyfriend, why do you keep putting break-up quotes on your blog?

What "break-up" quotes are you referring to? Because the quotes on my blog are speaking of an ex-friend, not an ex-boyfriend.

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Sunday, February 7, 2010

Words to live by #1

"Fear knocked at the door.
Faith answered.
No one was there."
- my fortune cookie from last night

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Don't you dare remember me.

"Just move on with your life."

I've done a pretty good job of forgetting,
but every now and again you still cross my mind . . .

I still miss you, a lot.

" And it sucks, because now we can't even be friends."