Thursday, May 6, 2010

Battle wounds.

I've been left with them - and as much as I try to pretend that it never happened and that I never got hurt, the scars are there. And I guess I'm afraid to give myself 100% to anybody else for this reason..... I'm afraid of being taken for granted, being cheated on, being lied to, etc. And although he promises he won't hurt me, the LAST one promised the same - & look what happened. I know it's unfair to compare the two, but after what I went through, I just can't help it. I wish I could get past this, it seems so silly. But then it all comes back to the MISERY I went through for six whole days.... And it just makes me wonder if its worth it. I seem to have found an amazing person, and now that I'm older, I should be able to go into this with a clear head, a clear heart, ready for whatever comes my way. And I want that, I swear I do - I want to make it to the TOP with him..... But am I wrong to be afraid?


Anonymous said...

No, I think that once you have been hurt that it is natural to be afraid, but you cannot be ruled by that. Pray about it and God will lead you in the right direction. That is what I always do when I am starting to like someone and time will tell if they are for you or not. Nice to see you back around girl! :o)