Wednesday, September 9, 2009

It's hard for others to understand the depth of my pain. I'm facing difficulties, and I feel alone as I seek solutions for my problems. Just as I put out one fire, I smell the smoke of another about to burst open in flames. There has been so much, I don't know where to begin...

If you're ever lonely...

Just remember that we live under the same stars and we look up at the same moon.
I know it seems like you're worlds away, but baby I'm thinking about you too....

...And I shouldn't be.
But fuck it because I can't help it.

Real shit.

You were not my first and you may not be my last or my only. I've never loved before but I may very well love again. But if I love you now, what else matters? I'm not perfect but neither are you - and the two of us may not be perfect together forever. But if I can make you laugh, cause you to think twice about things, and admit to being human and making mistakes, then hold onto me the best you can. I may not be thinking about you every second of every day, but I will give you a part of me that knows you can break my heart. So please don't hurt me, don't try to change me, don't analyze my every move and don't expect more from me than what I can give. Smile when I make you happy, let me know when I make you mad, and most of all - miss me when I'm not there.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Another one of those days.

Today was my day off, and I swear I wore the same clothes all day. I had tons of shit to do today but I just kept putting it off and off and now it's almost 11 so it's too late to do anything. I need to be up early tomorrow anyways. I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. I think I need to go write something.... Or something.

Oh yeah, and shower -_-