Rain.

Is such a beautiful thing. The sound of it is so incredibly soothing and relaxing . . .
I'm gonna go to sleep now, and enjoy this.

Dead end?

I really don't have the time to ride an emotional roller coaster. Lately things have been more stressful than good. I feel like I'm forcing something that isn't there anymore. I'unno.

I'm just so fed up with the way things are going. It's hard to fight back the tears, knowing this is the end & stuff, it makes me sad - but I'm not gonna cry. I'm better than that. it's hard though. I'm constantly telling myself to breathe, and taking long showers and naps - and going shopping just to have something else to think about.

There are millions of fish in the sea. Wasn't the first, won't be the last. Blah blah blah, I keep telling myself all that good inspirational uplifting crap.

Seriously though, I'm so young. I have SO many things ahead of me. I went into this with a clear head, and I told myself that forever is nonexistent. And it is - no matter how wonderful things may seem, there will eventually be a bump in the road - some bumps will be overcome smoothly, but others won't. I guess the saying goes . . " wasn't meant to be, it just happened. "

I don't regret anything. and if I could go back - I wouldn't erase one bit. Mistakes were made from both sides, and there's really nothing that triggered this. things just happen, I guess. people just change.